LIFE:unexpected SUM PIX VIX :)

wow this spring break was one that i will never forget...it was amazing and very unexpected my bestfriend came to islamabad and we ended up being a couple i guess you can say...but the thing is that i am very scared...i don't want to be hurt again...even tho me and him aren't exactly a couple...we are very much close to that to eachother...but i want to be with him and also i don't...i don't cuz when he goes back he is going to party with friends and things but what if he like someone he would be stopped cuz of me or if not that then he would cheat on me (god forbid) and that will hurt me...so i don't know what to do help people...but the good thing is that my ex is happy and he knows the guy very well so he knows how he is and he keeps telling me that no he won't hurt me but still you can never be so sure!!
luv